On leaving chattanooga. I feel angry at myself that i stayed as long as i did. I was so stupid to not see the danger I was in, to really truly believe i was ok? Living in survivor mode does that i guess. I have not one regret about leaving. I feel like it was more a bad bad dream and that it never happened, and i am so thankful for that. I am slowly working on being ok again, i still don't work a job, I have a schedule i follow everyday and i read most of the time. I have an amazing mentor, I don't know how to describe her,there is no way to describe her, 78 yrs old, and the wisest person I have ever met. I know I will get to that place where I feel content and at ease inside, but right now it still feels chaotic.
sometimes the hardest things in life turn out to be the best things! I'm so proud of you for going back to st. louis!
ReplyDelete:)
I just saw this! Thanks for the encouragement gracie. Love you girl.
ReplyDelete