A whole month later.

It has been a whole month since i posted anything. Life has been exhausting. My adopted sister is taking the energy from my family, its been hard. My family has never experienced anything like this. But the good, very good thing from this is that I have never been closer to my sister carrie. I am so thankful to have her. I am exhausted thinking about it as i type so Im done on this topic.

On leaving chattanooga. I feel angry at myself that i stayed as long as i did. I was so stupid to not see the danger I was in, to really truly believe i was ok? Living in survivor mode does that i guess. I have not one regret about leaving. I feel like it was more a bad bad dream and that it never happened, and i am so thankful for that. I am slowly working on being ok again, i still don't work a job, I have a schedule i follow everyday and i read most of the time. I have an amazing mentor, I don't know how to describe her,there is no way to describe her, 78 yrs old, and the wisest person I have ever met. I know I will get to that place where I feel content and at ease inside, but right now it still feels chaotic.